an open letter

An Open Letter To My Long Distance BFF

Dear Friend,

I’m sorry I can’t be by your side when I know you’re hurting. I’m sorry that I can only be a voice and not the one you can put your head on and cry your eyes out on. I’m sorry we can’t go to McDonalds at 2 AM to have nuggs. I’m sorry I can’t be there to tell you that outfit will literally be the worst purchase you will ever make. I’m sorry for all the things I can’t do for you but there are things I can do for you.

I will be there to FaceTime when you’re bored on your break. I will be there to send you funny memes and make you laugh when I know you’re crying your eyes out. I will be there to cyberstalk that boy you’ve been crushing on. I will be there to message you the crazy thing that happened in that last Greys episode. I will be online commenting to almost every tweet, photo, or status you have.

The times we have together are special only because it happens maybe once a year or once every two years. We wake up at 8 am to make sure we can make the most of the day and hit every mall, theme park, and beautiful sunset we can find. We even take a day just to watch a movie together only because FaceTime┬áNetflix watching makes it a couple seconds delayed. Every moment is magical and it always will be because we know what it’s like to be apart.

Distance will not stop us. Lack of funds will not stop us. You know why? Because we are unstoppable. Just because we are long distance doesn’t mean we’re any less of friends. In fact you’re just as important as the ones I see everyday, if not more. My friend, thank you for everything. However we have met, I’m thankful for that. I’m thankful for you. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Until next time,

-Jenna

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Writing

The Beginning.

Knowing yourself is a lot more than writing an about me on a social media site. Sure, summing it up in a few sentences is a lot easier but does that mean it’s really you? Is that who you really are? Or s that just what you want society to depict you as?

I’m told finding yourself is a process; a never-ending one, that is. It starts when you’re young and you’re asked what your favourite color is. Is it the one everyone expects? Or one that people deem as ugly. Then, your parents start buying everything you like in that particular color until you get tired of it. Then what? You just pick a new one? Maybe that color connected you with your best friend in early grade school, maybe it helped you find a passion for something you never thought you would, or maybe it became to mainstream and you’re so over it. Is it time to let go?

There’s more to a person than their favourite color or a tv show they’re obsessed with but how can you get to know that person if you don’t even know yourself? When someone asks you to describe yourself where do you start? Is it with that tv show? Is it with adjectives? Stories that depict who you are? Whatever it may be you may see yourself in a different light than others would. To one, you could be a kind soul but the lady in the market you accidentally ran into might think differently. But what if she knew the real you? Would she have treated you any different?

Whatever it may be about you that’s different, or the same, it is YOU. I do want to learn more things about myself though. So, this is the start of my journey to digging inside of myself, and having new experiences. I hope you all will join me in this process. Hopefully learning things about yourself as well.

Until next time,

– Jenna